Yes, I’m guilty of ignoring my blog. It’s just that much have or have not been happening. Well the truth is I’m just plain old lazy and not having my own Internet excess makes things all the more harder. But let’s not go into the griping mode just yet.
As the title suggest, I’m in a transitional state of my life right now. While other enjoy the full freedom of their holiday I’m still bound to University life for 2 more months. Thus a chapter begins…
Dear juniors…please for the love of God make sure you check your credit hours and make sure they are enough before it’s too late. Yup, that was exactly what happened to me. Pure ignorance and stupidity on my part I would say. I nearly had to extend another year because of 1 credit hour short, which was ridiculous. Thankfully, by the grace of God, my dear lecturer, Prof Choi opened a class for me. Yes, just for me . So thus far I’m the only 1 in Critical Thinking class. Isn’t she sweet for doing it?
Well, there was a catch. I had to help her with charity. You see, she’s involved in this center called Kechara Soup Center which is just like the ones you see ion TV in US. But because they don’t have a center yet, what we did last Saturday evening, was to go around, passing out food to the homeless.
It was a good feeling but we were given some guide on how to handle the homeless. Never pass out money. Many of them are turning to drugs and alcohol addiction. A packet of marijuana worth RM7 can last them for 3 days!There were many rules for our own protection but we were made to understand that these people are on the streets not by choice and they do not want pity. So basically what we did was to bring hope in their lives. Letting them know that there are people who still care and want to help them to get their feet back on th ground.
I suddenly realise that I’ll be turning 23 on the 23rd of December this year. Cool isn’t it? Gosh, some people my age are working, married with children, having a purpose in life, a general direction at least.
me? I don’t really know what I want to do. I really want to make use of my French Language. But I feel that I’m not up to par. There is a certain responsibility I feel in teaching.
I don’t know where I’m heading. Recently I joined a church that I really enjoy going to. People are nice there. But…I feel so bad leaving them. I’m way over here and they are way over there. I feel bad for committing myself there when I knew that I was to leave soon after. They probably think that I bailed on them or that I’m just another drifter. Truth is, I miss going to church. I miss hearing the sermons and seeing those familiar faces, though I might just be another acquaintance to them. I really wanted to start something there but instead I feel like I have stolen something from them.
All I know know is that I need some sort of guidance in life, love, in the relationship I have with the people around me.
And in the end I want to be a CEO and dedicate my life to the company that I call Family. Think about it before you start tsking in horror. In a family you need a leader, finance, budgeting, internal and external affairs, marketing, human resources, security etc. And now for the perk, sure it’s a life time 24/7 job but think of it this way, you get to hug, kiss and love your partner and not get sued for sexual harassment! Beeeautiful!!~
But thats for later. What about now? Acting? I sure miss that. Teacher, perhaps. Office? I can survive but truthfully I’m not cut out for the rat race. I guess I’m open for anything…but logistics is always a problem with me. Whatever I do, I pray that I will learn and grow from it. Well that all I have for now.. I shall wander aimlessly till I find my path again.